That’s right!! Today I am 13 weeks and 4 days pregnant and I could not be more excited!!  We got a positive test on October 25th and it has been so hard to keep this secret from all of you for this long.   It has been an emotional and taxing few months but we feel so incredibly lucky to have a healthy baby growing so far.  As you might know from my story I shared about my year with Hypothalamic Amenorrhea, infertility was a big fear of mine.  The doctor had said if my hormones balanced out then we should have no problems getting pregnant but after dealing with all of it there was still a big unknown there.  I also knew that on top of my hormone issues, that it is hard for MOST women to get pregnant these days.  The more people I talked to and stories I heard, I just thought that this would be the case for me too.  I had no idea I would get so lucky as to get pregnant only a few months into trying!

So now that I have prefaced with how LUCKY I know I am, I gotta talk about the not so fun parts of the last 3 months!  It would be fun to do a super short post today just talking about how excited we are, but you guys know I keep it real right? So why not share my bad days too?

I had thought that because I lived a healthy lifestyle I might get away with avoiding that dreaded morning sickness you hear about.  But not only did it come full force at week 6, but I really had no idea how terrible I would feel.  Anyone reading this who has been pregnant before is probably laughing at this… but really I thought it was just puking a couple of times!  For 2-3 weeks I laid on the couch in pain, not working and not being able to eat anything besides saltines, toast and the occasional sandwich.  Totally paleo right?

As much as my dietary health went down the drain and my posts on Instagram became a lot less frequent, I knew I had to listen to my body and do anything that was going to keep me sane in the head!  Feeling terrible 24/7 made me appreciate my usual health so much more.  It was getting pretty sad – I would cry pretty much every day for a bit just being so sad I felt so terrible and feeling like it was never going to end.  I just kept saying to myself, being sick means a healthy kiddo!! And that thought always made me feel a bit better.   Everyone I talk to just says, don’t worry, you’ll wake up one day in the second trimester and have energy again and feel great!  I am still waiting for that day but overall I have a lot more good days than bad ones lately.

It was quite a time of year for all of this to be going on too! Between Friendsgiving, Thanksgiving, Christmas parties, Christmas dinner and hosting most of them… I was beat.  Oh and let’s not forget to mention Matt getting surgery at some point in there too!  But as world shaking as all of a sudden hating vegetables was… I have made it through to the other side- food wise any ways. I can finally stomach some veggies but still not as many as I used to eat.  I know I will get my tastes back, but for now I am just trying to get back on track with eating healthier than I have the last few months.  And I can’t wait to go on the journey with you!  I decided to hold off on doing a January Whole30 because I just don’t think putting those restrictions on myself would be best for me right now.  But fear not!! I will be bringing TONS of new Whole30 recipes to my site this month, including a new series called Meatloaf Mondays!  I know you guys love easy meatloaf recipes that the whole family will love so we have 4 new ones coming your way.

I just wanted to wrap this up with saying THANK YOU!! I already know I will learn most of what I will know about pregnancy and motherhood from you guys and I can’t wait to soak it all in.  I’ll probably share about my experience on Instagram stories more than on this blog so be sure to follow me over there for a day by day look at things over at LBO HQ!